That you are here is indication there is something for you to create, be and do. With every new idea your life becomes a canvass to be filled. There is nothing to complete because life is always in motion, life is always evolving and you are always growing. Nothing you have done so far was the end only the first in the series of steps waiting for more to be added to form that which you will become. Worry not that all the education, jobs, activities, or creations do not seem to go together for they will all mesh together as the collective ingredients in what you will create, be and do in the future.

Friday, April 30, 2010

An Erection for Life, an Erection for Me!

Good day to all from my Skycastle, my erection, where I feel this morning my bodies elated response to the love I have for myself and life.

Awww, it seems there is little else in this world that brings such a high to your body as an erection; especially when it’s an erection in response to you.

I know you are wondering, maybe with a little giggle, where I’m going with this. In meditation at 5:30 this morning I realized that the only thing we really need do is love self. The fulfillment and love of self is the only thing that is important. When you do only that which brings self joy, gives you pleasure, then you will love self.

Discard the idea that there is such thing as good or bad, right or wrong. We are so convinced that there are things we must do that, even though we do not want to do them, that are the right or good things to do. Doing something that is good for you on the other hand is certainly best. A highly detrimental belief is that there are things in this world we must do, whether we like it or not, because that’s just the way life is. We have convinced ourselves that life is hard and the sooner you get that, the sooner you will be better off.

The focus in my meditation this morning was on self-fulfillment and love of self. I visualized myself in my preferred life condition and in the perfect, strong youthful and joyful body. I let my body dissolve into the energy of the light of the universe and became one with it. I allowed myself to become nothing but pure positive Source energy and saw the eternalness, the un-limitedness of the universe and of myself. And I felt pure love for myself. And oh what an erection I had for life and myself. I had several full body and spirit orgasms from connecting to the unlimited energy of the universe of Source.

Erection: The firm and enlarged condition of a body organ or part when the erectile tissue surrounding it becomes filled with blood, especially such a condition of the penis or clitoris. An erection is the process of filling with blood.

The spiritual ecstasy of my meditation this morning sparked such joy and self love that it felt as if I had a beautiful, enlarged erection for life and for myself. My body, filled with life giving blood, was the erection.

So many things came to me this morning. I suddenly had this complete understanding, respect and honor for the penis. What a beautiful member responding to stimulating energy, to another human beings energy and beauty, and to life itself. Like a divining rod that responds to the energy of metal, the penis or clitoris responds to the pure positive Source energy of another physical being.

I realized the extreme importance of always and forever only doing what brings me joy, in that I love myself and emanate such pure love for all life that my life experience can’t help to be of pure ecstasy and joy.

In meditation I saw myself, my body, as one huge blood filled member responding to the energy of my, self love and source love. I was a penis or clitoris. What a joyful giggle that burst from me as I came out of meditation feeling such immense self and life love. This is remembering who you really are, pure positive love Source energy in a physical form.

In this realization, this morning, I knew that I never needed anyone to make me happy. I never need anyone else to tell me how grand, beautiful and divine I am. I know now that everything I need is within me. I can experience full and satisfying love without the use of others. I go on forever. I am energy, never dying, only changing form, eternally playing in the universe and soaring wherever brings me joy. I may choose to play with others, to enjoy their love and energy that will only bring me more joy, but I need not ever require them to bring me joy or happiness.

I need not seek another’s erection, or energy, to feel ecstasy, joy or worthiness for I am the erection

The power of self love is astounding. The stimulation, wrought from self love, creates a sensitivity in your body that responds to all of life with utter joy. Within self love everything you see, hear, taste, smell and touch moves through your body, in a wave that trembles your body with pure joyful ecstasy that in turn fills you with more love; more love for self, more love for Source, more love for life, more love for everything and everyone seen and not seen.

With this morning’s increased self love everything is brighter; the trees are greener, the sky bluer, the flowers more brilliant and the air more pure. Everything seems intensely surreal.

Surreal: having the disorienting, hallucinatory quality of a dream; unreal; fantastic

The experience of feeling that everything is surreal must be that you are realizing that what we think of as real is actually the dream. What is so called surreal is actually the reality we have become blind to seeing.

I recall a moment, ten years back, in my life that I experienced a feeling of what is called surreal. My daughter, at 19 and in the Navy, was wounded almost killed when the ship she was serving on, the USS Cole, was bombed by terrorist in the port of Yemen. I spent several days without word as to whether she was alive. Once I found that she was alive we went through the morning at a memorial for the lost shipmates and she returned home with me for a month of leave to recuperate from her physical, spiritual and emotional wounds. I remember, after she was safe and sleeping in our home, relaxing and sitting on the patio with several close women friends, having coffee. I looked around the yard, at the trees at the sky and at the women in total awe. Seeing the astounding look on my face they asked me what was going on. I was filled with such love and gratitude for the safety of my child. I was filled with such appreciation and love for everything around me and everything and everybody appeared surreal. It wasn’t feeling surreal, or like an unreal dream, it was feeling and seeing the reality of life. I felt like I had never seen those trees, the sky or these women before that moment. Really, I hadn’t. What we think is real is not and what we think of as not real is real when we really see.

When you love yourself and life the surreal-ness is the reality. I see myself and the world differently this morning. I see and feel the divinity of myself and the life all around me. I feel the part I am playing; a part of the whole energy of Source, living temporarily in this physical form, beautiful, divine, powerful, loving, and joyful erecting in response to all that is Source.

Become an a big beautiful divine loving joyful, blood and energy filled, erection responding to the teaming life all around and the love for self.

Allow yourself to love self! Do only that which brings you joy.

Be Well

Love Michelle

Check out, one of the followers here, Delana’s blog for yesterday, April 29th, it’s a good one for embracing what makes you happy.


  1. Dear Michelle,

    I went to bed last night listening to my thoughts. They were fearful and somewhat agonizing. My solution was not just the recognition of these thoughts, but changing these thoughts to words of love, joy and peace.

    Eventually I quieted my thinking and went to sleep. Loving self is amazing.

    Thank you.
    Love, JoAnna

  2. Great post Michelle. I had to laugh though because I had just, the moment before, read a post from a fellow blogger about the search words people use that eventually land them at her site. You are SO in trouble! :) Thank you again for being there. You are a blessing.