That you are here is indication there is something for you to create, be and do. With every new idea your life becomes a canvass to be filled. There is nothing to complete because life is always in motion, life is always evolving and you are always growing. Nothing you have done so far was the end only the first in the series of steps waiting for more to be added to form that which you will become. Worry not that all the education, jobs, activities, or creations do not seem to go together for they will all mesh together as the collective ingredients in what you will create, be and do in the future.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Discovering Your Tremble part 1 of 4
I trust that you feel the joy of waking to new manifesting opportunities. Today’s article is about finding or rediscovering your “Tremble” What is “Tremble” you might ask.
Tremble is that feeling that shakes your body because you are doing that thing that excites you in such a big way that you tremble. You cannot control this when its occurring, or rather you are not deciding to tremble; it’s your body’s response, the residual effect of having practiced your purpose. When you discover your spirits joyful purpose, your body responds to you having hit upon that which you were meant to do and the excitement is so grand that you tremble. I experience this when I speak, on Law of Attraction, to an audience. It doesn’t matter if it’s an audience of one or hundred’s. Teaching, guiding and assisting other’s to find their tremble, as well as how to use Law of Attraction, brings me such joy that my body can’t help but to tremble in exquisite joy. The moment I see another’s eyes light up in understanding and connecting to all they are I feel an exquisite tremble.
Today we are going to talk about how to discover your tremble. Whether you have never discovered it or it’s just been lying dormant. Really, it’s only been lying dormant. We have all stumbled or touched upon our tremble. We have all experience that tremble, even if it was only for a fleeting moment, giving us a clue in the direction we should head. Most of the time we just hadn’t identified our tremble at the moment we felt the reaction. Often, you just touched on a little of your tremble and you did not realize that it was just a clue as to the direction you should head. And for those who realized it, on a conscious level, you may have been too afraid to follow through.
I had experienced my tremble many times, knew basically what I was meant to do, but, in the past, was too frightened to follow through. I had been consoling many people, friends, family and sometimes strangers for years, and knew that I had a born talent to do so. However, to entertain doing this on a professional level frightened me to no end. I believed that I needed a degree in the field; I believed I needed someone else to give me authorization or permission and I thought maybe I wasn’t smart enough. I wondered who would listen to me. Who was I to be directing others?
I am here to say, “You do not need anyone else to tell you what you are capable of, have talent for, or are intelligence enough to do.”
When you discover your “Tremble” all else will fall into place. Because it is what you were meant to do. And when you are doing what you were meant to do you can’t help but too succeed.
Sometime back I remember going in circles trying to control my thoughts, trying to figure out what it is I should be doing. I wasn’t experiencing any great joy in any of my endeavors’ and was beginning to believe something was wrong with me.
I knew I had many talents; I was an artist, I was a writer, I was an art teacher, I was an Interior Designer and I was great mother. I had enjoyed all of them. I had had many different kinds of jobs in my life; Teacher, Telemarketing Manager, Waitress, Assistant Youth Education Director, Switchboard Operator, Maid, Stage Manager, Artist for Ads, Clown (in my own birthday party business) Muralist, Interior Designer (Degreed), Rental Equipment Dishwasher, Secretary, House Construction Forman, Medical Assistant (Degreed), Dental Assistant, McDonald’s Server, Public School Substitute Teacher, Retail Saleswoman, Nanny, Customer Service Representative and Private Art School Assistant Director. I think that’s the complete list, could be another couple in there. I had done many jobs in my life. Most were dealing with speaking to or teaching people.
In my early education, before I dropped out of high school in the tenth grade, I struggled with math. In grade school, because my family moved around so much, I had not learned to read very well or tell time. So at age nine, I taught myself how to read. In private places, like at night under a blanket with a flashlight, I practiced and practiced until I could read well. Then I started writing, without another’s instruction, poems, stories and songs.
I went back to school and got my G.E.D when I was about twenty-four and started college with a degree major; Psychology. That major changed over and over many times. I dropped out of college after only a few semesters. I returned to college a few years later and earned a Medical Assistant Certificate; which was at the influence of another, I didn't really want to be a Medical Assistant. However, the training came in handy when I saved my sons life, when he was three.
Then a few years later I returned to college, back to the Psychology Major, and then switched to an English Major. Dropped out again because my children were young and needed my attention. Ten years later I wrote and published a book, returned to college and earned a B.A. degree in Interior Design.
So as I struggled, with trying to decide what to do with my life, having the sudden opportunity of time to rediscover myself, I began many endeavors’. I would begin with some excitement but that excitement soon fizzled into a depressive pile of dust in the corner. I drove my husband insane. One day he would come home and I would be happy and hot on the trail of some project and the next day he would discover me in a self-deprecating clump of depression on the sofa. I was driving myself insane. As I looked at everything I had done, all the jobs and education, nothing seemed to go with anything else. It seemed I hadn’t arranged my education and employment in a defined focus and eventual outcome of a Career. I was getting depressed feeling that I had wasted my time and wondered what I would do now. Nothing, I had done before, appealed to me any longer. Nothing I tried held my attention or enthusiasm for very long but I kept trying. I kept trying harder and harder. I stuck with some thing’s I didn’t really have enthusiasm for. I just sucked it up and kept going only to crash and burn once again and believing that there was something terribly wrong with me.
I had studied Law of Attraction and Manifesting long enough to know that I needed to change my thoughts to change my experience. So I worked hard on changing my thoughts. Trouble is Law of Attraction doesn’t work when you force, try and take action constantly. I realized that I was so determined and so resistant that nothing was changing. And frankly I was exhausted from trying so hard. Remembering that Law of Attraction says that whatever you think attracts more of that which you think about. I had been scolding myself for not being able to become all that I wanted and for not being able to find my tremble.
Then one day I decided that I was going to give myself a break. Stop trying to figure out what I should do with my life, stop trying to change every thought and stop tearing myself apart in the process. I decided to just exist for awhile. I didn’t decide how long just that I would stop trying. I just trusted Law of Attraction, I knew that you ask for what you want (in this case I asked to know what I want) trust that it will come and go about your business of life with excited expectation.
I had done the asking, for way too long, and now I went about my life. I cooked/baked, cleaned, painted, read, walked, journaled, and played. I just didn’t think about what I wanted. I was so relaxed and it was nice. There was a mild undertone of; I don’t really care right now. And that was ok.
After a few weeks, one night, my husband and I were watching a video, “Beyond the Secret” If you don’t know, “The Secret” is basically The Law of Attraction. There was this delightful motivational speaker appearing on the movie, Les Brown. He said, among other things, some ones opinion of you does not have to become your reality and from Oliver Windal Holmes, “Once a person’s mind is expanded with an idea or concept it can never be satisfied to going back to where it was” My mind had been expanded with an idea and concept and I was trying to ignore this.
As I listened to Les Brown’s words, a tear came down my face and I trembled. My husband, sitting next to me, inspected my tears. "What is it my love?"
I looked at him in joy and said, "I know what I'm supposed to do and I can do this"
I knew that my life time of counseling other's, my ability to touch other's in my speaking and my understanding of Law of Attraction was to be put to use.
"I am an Inspirational Motivational Speaker and Teacher"
I have begun and I have not looked back since.
I had re-discovered my Tremble.
All the experiences and education thus far had come together to create what I am today and what I am doing today.
What idea or concept, has expanded your mind and is dissatisfied with going back to where it was? That is probably, “Your Tremble”
Look for part 2 of discovering your tremble tomorrow.